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I shouted over my mom and rejected the call first.
I guess I'm on my own way to hell now.



Sorry, Mom.

00.50 AM

I just feel like writing a post tonight. Or is it morning, already?

Suddenly I feel bad.
I'm not doing anything right in my life yet.
I pray always in the last time. I always in rushed. Just think it as a duty.  Not a time to talk to God. The time for me to thank Him about everything. Thank Him for the live He gave me. For all the chances  for all the blessed..
For every seconds He gave me and my family..
I lost the essence from praying itself. I made it lost.

I never take my studies seriously.
I do everything in the last minute.
The exam, the quiz, the material. All of them.
I lack in everything.

I'm not trying my best to make my parents and brothers proud of me.
For their happiness.

You're here. You're near.
Please, forgive me. And help me to be a better person.


We created man and We know what his own self whispers to him. We are nearer to him than his jugular vein. (Surah Qaf: 16)