What I learned from The Amazing Spiderman

Just finished this movie.

Late? Very. 

I wanted  to watch it back in July on its premiere day but the queue was crazy!

Then I went to Papua and had no chance to watch it there (obviously).

Well, since am not a big fan of Peter Parker, it's not a big deal.

(but hey, of course am a fan of Andrew Garfield!)

Okay, just cut the crap.

So, do you realize that this movie actually have a really deep lesson?

I just realized it now and it's a shame.

The scene when Uncle Ben died, I was crying like a baby.

It's like watching me in the screen.

Peter had a bad day, he forgot the promise he made with his uncle before, his uncle got angry. you know , his uncle and auntie never meant to make him feel bad but he ended up shouted and throwed his tantrum at them. 

the story continued. the angry Peter  happened to let the thief go just because he saved a grudge to the store owner. and, just like everybody already knew, the thief killed uncle Ben who've had been wandering around the block to looking for Peter.

(and please do not ask me why I wrote all those scene in a past form).

I don't know what it's like for you, but for me, it's familiar.

I lose count on the number of how many times I shouted over my parents, especially my mom, about something....just meaningless. 

I never thought that the day I shouted over her could be the last day I can talk, speak and see her. 

This movie remembering me about that thing. About what should I do to make me not to regret it someday. In a future.Or in a near future. Who knows.

I also have learned from this movie that no matter how bad people did things to you, you, in other way, need  to keep being good to them. Always. No matter what. 

Because you have no idea about what you did might be a bad affect to other people. 

It can be anyone and also it can be your dearest one. You just have no idea.

And once this happens, what you can do later is just regret.

I don't want to make the same mistake as Peter Parker did.

And I think, I know what should I do from now on.

Hopefully.

P.S. I'm in the middle of mid term week. And it'll be my last mid term week as an undergraduate college student.

Thank you, and I wish you a ton of lucks too!

What is Desi Anwar Saying?

You owe it to yourself to do well in everything you do.. -- Desi Anwar.

I got the point very well. (or at least I thought so)
We will see if I can hold on to it and not dissappoint my ownself.

Anyway, Buongiorno!
Ready for another blessed day from God?

Rare Thoughts. Rare Confession.

I wish I knew what is in your mind.

I wish I had a courage to show you that I care.

I wish I had a chance to let you know that I'm not only plan about my future, once in a while, I plan about 'us' too.

I wish I was more crazy, and in one of many conversations we had, the words ' i like you' popped out unexpectedly.

I won't think it was a shame, I won't act as if it never happened or even deny it.
I would happily say, 'that was truly what I have in my heart. glad you know it now'.

I wish I told you that I listen to (almost) all songs you used to hear. Not because I'm kind of overly-attached-girlfriend(s), but I'm trying to know you more through the lyrics. It was useful tho ;)


I wish all the things I wanted to say or do to you, I said and did already before you belong to someone else.

But it seems like I already late, right?

.....

Because you know,
out of the boyish-strong-independent-Marcopolo personalities that I have,
I just an old fashion-conservative girl who always thinks that 'those kind of starting-the-relationship-or-giving-any-codes-about-it acts' should be done by the boys.
The girls have its own role. Which is...waiting.

Until now I still believe in that role.
It's not like I'm not into emancipation or anything but I have my own version of it.
Mine doesn't include the heart stuff.
People called it silly but I called it principle.

That's why I'm trying not to regret anything.


P.S. I cannot believe I can be so serious sometimes (which is so rare).

Tanti Auguri, Legend!

Happy Birthday, my all time favorite football player,
Andriy Mikolaiovich Shevchenko!

May all the greatest things come along the way.


still have this silly-endlessly-obsession that we could meet up someday in a sunny day.
my place or yours? time decides ;)

Mi Manchi, G! Even if you have not leaving yet.

I don't know much about football.

All I know is I was growing up with a people who treasure football so much.

My dad, my brothers.

A television in our home will always on when there is a football match.

I have no other choice except watching it together with them.

It didn't make me starts to heart football right away.

I watched it because it's fun. It's fun watching them. My Family. Together. Watching.

One day, when I was still ini junior high (if i'm not mistaken), I felt a little bit irritated.

I asked my mom, 'why do we subscribed to BOLA Magazine every week all this time? But sometimes I don't always get a permission to buy a magazine that I want?'

My mom answered.

And I concluded them as : 'Your dad and brothers (which is 4 of 6 persons in my home) read it.Why bother?'

You know, I heart reading.

That's why I found it irritated when there is a magazine in my home but I can't read it (cause i don't have any interest).

I used to read any newspapers my dad brought home.

But, after my mom say such a words, I changed my decision.

It's kind of funny. I started to read BOLA, because I don't want to feel loss.

In another side, I started to heart football as well.

My family love AC Milan. So, as a girl who only knows to follow. I love them too.

As long as I can remember, the first time I pay an attention while watching Milan was on 2005.

The final Champion League against Liverpool. The night of sadness in Istanbul.

Liverpudlian called that night magical, right?

Maybe it was magic for me also. 

Because after that night, I started to follow all the news about Milan.

Not because my family, but based on my own will.

I picked Andriy Mikolaiovich Shevchenko as my favorite at that time (and he still is) just because he's cool! Eventhough, he's the one who failed the penalty at that night :(

But later on, I realized he's not only cool-handsome-gorgeous and so on but also a great player!

I heart him even more.

The day he left. I remember.

I still not used to internet back in 2006, so I read the news from the newspaper.

There he was. In a picture.

Wearing a casual clothes, holding a pen. Just signed a contract with Chelsea.

I feel so disappointed.

I even following others to left a petition in shevarestaconnoi.com (sheva, don't leave us),

 but it didn't help.

The picture of him that I couldn't ever forget

Another sad day has come again.

Another great man, another a favorite player of mine.

"I'm leaving Milan because a cycle has ended." Gattuso said.

Grazie, Rino! Orang Italia paling Italia yang pernah saya tahu.

PS. The song that Galliani played right after Gattuso told him his decision is too sad. Really.

I play it over and over again while looking at Gattuso's photos and almost tearing.

I even listening to its song while writing this right now.

Just another friday

What is the point of hearting someone for so long if you don’t even have a plan to tell him/her your true feeling?

Geez. What did I just write.

Everyone seems in a competition to pissed me off today.
Even a nonsense comment in youtube could make me irritated.
Find a way to release my depression but end up missing you for no reason.

Me, myself also curious to know whom I mean with you in the last sentence.

God, I miss high school.

Always made my day.

This time, the content of the package really made me burst into laughter.

Thanks, Mom! ;)

  

have a nice weekend!

Randomly found a pict from tumblr which happens to share a same background with mine.

Enjoy your weekend! \;D/

Remember this for August 18th.

I want this bookshelf. Really.

Won't you believe me?

Buy me this for my birthday and I'll heart you for the rest of my life.

I promise.

if you know what i mean ;))

one of my fave since high school.
how could they don't have the official MV for this song? :'(


don't lose hope. just........don't.

I easily get jealous over my friend's success.

Please God,
what is wrong with my brain.....and heart :(

Selamat ulang tahun yang keduapuluh!

1. Semoga kuliahnya lancar dan kita lulus bersama-sama!

2. Semoga impian kamu untuk foto keluarga yang mulia itu segera tercapai :)

3. Semoga kamu segera melupakan hal yang sedih-sedih di masa lalu ;)

4. Semoga segera menemukan yang baru untuk menjadi semangat hidup :p

5. Semoga AMIN online shop nya sukses :))

6. Semoga suatu saat bisa ke India!

7. Semoga bisa jadi teman dekatnya Bisma Kharisma (pret).

8. Semoga kesampean dapat jodoh orang India.

9. Semoga besok wall stickernya nggak nambah lagi tiba-tiba.

10. Semoga sarapannya nggak nasi kuning mulu. Berkembanglah!

11. Semoga ada keajaiban jadi bisa suka sayur.

12. Semoga bisa jadi tante yang baik dan benar buat Syahla dkk.

13. Semoga kamarnya nggak kayak goa lagi.

14. Semoga kartu kreditnya lebih sering dipake untuk mengayomi Amanah crew.

15. Semo.... duh masih banyak juga ya -__-

17. Semoga segera mendapat hidayah! (you know what i mean :3 )

18. Semoga setiap tugas JMC bisa diselesaikan JAUUH sebelum deadline.

19. Selamat ulang tahun, teman saya sejak tahun 2009. Teman tempat meminjam duit disaat keabisan dan malas ke ATM, teman tempat meminta air disaat dehidrasi, teman yang mengenalkan kepada online shop dan kebangkrutan, teman yang bersedia menemani di tengah malam saat kelaparan, teman yang kipas pisau dan alat-alat lainnya selalu saya rusakin, teman yang tidak jera curhat dengan saya walaupun tidak pernah diberikan masukan yang berguna, teman yang juga merangkap asisten!

20. Selamat ulang tahun, TRYA!

Who says our parents always less-known-about-everything than us?

My father didn't.


I don't need to explain what does MIT stand for and he is the one who tell me in which state Harvard is located.
I am more clueless -,-

Back to the old days when I still at home, my father could answer everything I ask to him.

Politics, economy, everything!

He used to read more than 3 newspapers each day, until now.

If only he able to continue study in West Java at that time.

If only my grand father didn't die when my father still at young age.

If only.

I do believe my father could achieve moooore than he had now.

Oh well, I MISS YOUUUUUU.

Just thinking about you always makes me cry because I miss you soooo badly.

See you soon, Atah! :)

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00.16 AM

I just got back from the nearest burjo. You don't know what 'burjo' stands for?
I'll tell you. It's 'bubur kacang ijo'.
It's kind of a place for anak kos to continue living.
Food. Cheap. The words say everything.

I'm hungry, in the middle of the night. That's why I went there.
Then, it makes me thinking. What would I do if the same thing happened and I'm still at home?

I'll call one of my brothers.
'Buy me a fried rice when you're going back. I'm hungry'

I'll going to the kitchen. Open the refrigerator. Checking what's left to eat.

Or if my parents still awake, I'll ask for some money and going straight to buy food at the nearest place from my home.

Well, I'm no longer able to do those kind of things.
I can't call my brothers, we are separated by island.
I can't open the refrigerator, don't have any in my dorm.
Even if my parents still awake, they don't know I'm hungry here.

The only thing I can do is going alone to burjo. Sit and eat.

It's midnight here.
Don't blame me for being 'a pathetic-because-of-homesick' person.


Anyways, happy new year!
=]