Rare Thoughts. Rare Confession.

I wish I knew what is in your mind.

I wish I had a courage to show you that I care.

I wish I had a chance to let you know that I'm not only plan about my future, once in a while, I plan about 'us' too.

I wish I was more crazy, and in one of many conversations we had, the words ' i like you' popped out unexpectedly.

I won't think it was a shame, I won't act as if it never happened or even deny it.
I would happily say, 'that was truly what I have in my heart. glad you know it now'.

I wish I told you that I listen to (almost) all songs you used to hear. Not because I'm kind of overly-attached-girlfriend(s), but I'm trying to know you more through the lyrics. It was useful tho ;)


I wish all the things I wanted to say or do to you, I said and did already before you belong to someone else.

But it seems like I already late, right?

.....

Because you know,
out of the boyish-strong-independent-Marcopolo personalities that I have,
I just an old fashion-conservative girl who always thinks that 'those kind of starting-the-relationship-or-giving-any-codes-about-it acts' should be done by the boys.
The girls have its own role. Which is...waiting.

Until now I still believe in that role.
It's not like I'm not into emancipation or anything but I have my own version of it.
Mine doesn't include the heart stuff.
People called it silly but I called it principle.

That's why I'm trying not to regret anything.


P.S. I cannot believe I can be so serious sometimes (which is so rare).