What is Desi Anwar Saying?

You owe it to yourself to do well in everything you do.. -- Desi Anwar.

I got the point very well. (or at least I thought so)
We will see if I can hold on to it and not dissappoint my ownself.

Anyway, Buongiorno!
Ready for another blessed day from God?

Rare Thoughts. Rare Confession.

I wish I knew what is in your mind.

I wish I had a courage to show you that I care.

I wish I had a chance to let you know that I'm not only plan about my future, once in a while, I plan about 'us' too.

I wish I was more crazy, and in one of many conversations we had, the words ' i like you' popped out unexpectedly.

I won't think it was a shame, I won't act as if it never happened or even deny it.
I would happily say, 'that was truly what I have in my heart. glad you know it now'.

I wish I told you that I listen to (almost) all songs you used to hear. Not because I'm kind of overly-attached-girlfriend(s), but I'm trying to know you more through the lyrics. It was useful tho ;)


I wish all the things I wanted to say or do to you, I said and did already before you belong to someone else.

But it seems like I already late, right?

.....

Because you know,
out of the boyish-strong-independent-Marcopolo personalities that I have,
I just an old fashion-conservative girl who always thinks that 'those kind of starting-the-relationship-or-giving-any-codes-about-it acts' should be done by the boys.
The girls have its own role. Which is...waiting.

Until now I still believe in that role.
It's not like I'm not into emancipation or anything but I have my own version of it.
Mine doesn't include the heart stuff.
People called it silly but I called it principle.

That's why I'm trying not to regret anything.


P.S. I cannot believe I can be so serious sometimes (which is so rare).

Tanti Auguri, Legend!

Happy Birthday, my all time favorite football player,
Andriy Mikolaiovich Shevchenko!

May all the greatest things come along the way.


still have this silly-endlessly-obsession that we could meet up someday in a sunny day.
my place or yours? time decides ;)

Mi Manchi, G! Even if you have not leaving yet.

I don't know much about football.

All I know is I was growing up with a people who treasure football so much.

My dad, my brothers.

A television in our home will always on when there is a football match.

I have no other choice except watching it together with them.

It didn't make me starts to heart football right away.

I watched it because it's fun. It's fun watching them. My Family. Together. Watching.

One day, when I was still ini junior high (if i'm not mistaken), I felt a little bit irritated.

I asked my mom, 'why do we subscribed to BOLA Magazine every week all this time? But sometimes I don't always get a permission to buy a magazine that I want?'

My mom answered.

And I concluded them as : 'Your dad and brothers (which is 4 of 6 persons in my home) read it.Why bother?'

You know, I heart reading.

That's why I found it irritated when there is a magazine in my home but I can't read it (cause i don't have any interest).

I used to read any newspapers my dad brought home.

But, after my mom say such a words, I changed my decision.

It's kind of funny. I started to read BOLA, because I don't want to feel loss.

In another side, I started to heart football as well.

My family love AC Milan. So, as a girl who only knows to follow. I love them too.

As long as I can remember, the first time I pay an attention while watching Milan was on 2005.

The final Champion League against Liverpool. The night of sadness in Istanbul.

Liverpudlian called that night magical, right?

Maybe it was magic for me also. 

Because after that night, I started to follow all the news about Milan.

Not because my family, but based on my own will.

I picked Andriy Mikolaiovich Shevchenko as my favorite at that time (and he still is) just because he's cool! Eventhough, he's the one who failed the penalty at that night :(

But later on, I realized he's not only cool-handsome-gorgeous and so on but also a great player!

I heart him even more.

The day he left. I remember.

I still not used to internet back in 2006, so I read the news from the newspaper.

There he was. In a picture.

Wearing a casual clothes, holding a pen. Just signed a contract with Chelsea.

I feel so disappointed.

I even following others to left a petition in shevarestaconnoi.com (sheva, don't leave us),

 but it didn't help.

The picture of him that I couldn't ever forget

Another sad day has come again.

Another great man, another a favorite player of mine.

"I'm leaving Milan because a cycle has ended." Gattuso said.

Grazie, Rino! Orang Italia paling Italia yang pernah saya tahu.

PS. The song that Galliani played right after Gattuso told him his decision is too sad. Really.

I play it over and over again while looking at Gattuso's photos and almost tearing.

I even listening to its song while writing this right now.

Just another friday

What is the point of hearting someone for so long if you don’t even have a plan to tell him/her your true feeling?

Geez. What did I just write.

Everyone seems in a competition to pissed me off today.
Even a nonsense comment in youtube could make me irritated.
Find a way to release my depression but end up missing you for no reason.

Me, myself also curious to know whom I mean with you in the last sentence.

God, I miss high school.

Always made my day.

This time, the content of the package really made me burst into laughter.

Thanks, Mom! ;)

  

have a nice weekend!

Randomly found a pict from tumblr which happens to share a same background with mine.

Enjoy your weekend! \;D/